It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything but I’ve had some thoughts that I’ve been trying to work through. The last few weeks have had a lot of positive things come out of them.
Last Tuesday, I had a phone interview for a work from home MTM pharmacist position. MTM or Medication Therapy Management is what attracted me to pharmacy in the first place. Leading up to the interview, I made sure to try and build up my confidence and avoid the negative self-talk that so often inhabits my brain. The interview went great and at the end of the call he offered me the position. This was a huge relief after just over 4 months of looking for a position. It took until Monday to receive the formal offer letter for me to sign so that gave me some anxiety waiting on it being solidified. It was definitely a relief to sign that letter on Monday.
Although my anxiety has improved due to my improved situation, I have noticed that my depression has not totally improved. I have tried multiple self-care methods and they have helped in the moment but I seem to keep going back to the low state.
There are a few different reasons I think this is happening. As someone with depression, even on my good days something can trigger me and push me in to that depressive mood. It is a daily fight to ignore the negative self-talk and can be very tiring which perpetuates the situation. Depression is caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain and even if things are going very well in your life you may still be experiencing depressive symptoms. This is why I continue to go to counseling and continue practicing self care.
Hiking Through Anxiety & Depression 